I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm moving on

I know they all have been waiting for me to run off again. But what they don't see, is the reason why I am leaving. And why this simple task of mounting my horse and leave, never to look back, brings me so much pain.

Maybe it is in my nature. Maybe it all comes from the way I was brought up. Maybe it's really just me. But there must be something beneath it all, the way I can never seem to get things right, to do things the right way. There must be a meaning behind it all, or at least that's what I keep telling myself.

And it all has made me reach the decision that has been made so many times before. I'm moving on.

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different, but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I faced it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm moving on

Tomorrow when they wake, I'll be gone. And they'll never know why I had to leave hidden by the darkness and the night. The reason is simple. This is the only way I can leave. Letting myself believe for some fleeting moments that I might be coming back, the ghost of a smile comes to my face and vanishes just as quickly. Of course I am fooling myself.

Things have changed so much after the Stutz incident, so much that it opened my eyes. It's funny just how much you can make yourself believe just on the basis of hope. You hold on to it so desperately and still it crumbles so easily, making you wonder if it was really there at all. Well, you can't pull up roots that were never really fastened anyway. Come morning this part of my life will be irreversibly over and a new one can start.

I'm moving on, at last I can see
That life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantee
But I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

The main street is dark as I pass through it. I can see a few other, solitairy figures moving, they seem so far away like I am already gone.

It's the last time that I will see this, and I feel like I should slow down, acknowledging the fact. But the feeling of urgency is back. I must leave. Because if I don't...I'll stay. And too many things may come of that.

Sooner or later I will forget, like I always do. Time is kind, healing wounds although they re-open every once in a while. My mind and heart is a battlefield yet, the two waging war on each other. Leaving means leavng behind as well. And of all the thoughts, doubts and feelings, that is what makes me look back.

But what use is there to linger for a love that was doomed from the start? In beautiful lies and self deception. We both knew it could never be. Playing with fire has a way of making you end up burnt.

I sold what I could, and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should, but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm moving on

The whole world is ahead of me. Maybe now I can be the man that they wanted me to be. So I can honour their memory this way. And somewhere along the way perhaps I will come to terms with my past, find forgiveness.

The sky is opening up in front of me, every star shimmering coldly so far away. They seem so close though, that you can just reach out your hand and touch them. Only to find that they were never really within your reach at all. Turning my eyes from the stars and onto the road, I start my journey.

Never looking back.

I'm moving on

The End

(Lyrics: Moving On, by Rascal Flatts)